I could never have imagined the intensity of motherhood and that’s probably a good thing. If you had asked me before I had kids whether I was prepared to live the rest of my life with the most vital, most beautiful and precious parts of my heart outside of me for anything to happen to, I would not have been able to even see how this was possible.

Now I know.

I know that if there is no sadness, then how would I know joy?

If there is no panic how would I know what being calm feels like?

If there is no sense of feeling lost at times during motherhood, how would I know what it feels like to be with my children and know that I am home?

Now I know.

I cannot have one without the other